Yep, you know how the rest of that saying goes. If I had a dime for every time I did _____, I’d be rich. I have started and stopped so many blog posts. Why? Because I struggle with this thing called….perfection. Or maybe it’s a fear of what others may think. Either way, they go hand in hand. I was talking to my 16-year-old yesterday and she was telling me that she struggles to start things. She talks herself out of something before she even gets started. “Me too, baby. Me too,” I said. Now I know where she learned it from.
I’m not a professional writer. Or anything professional, really. I have experience. But not much formal training. I’ve been a wife for 17 years now and a mom for 16. Very little guidance when it comes to those crucial roles, but lots of hands-on practice. Trial and error, grace, forgiveness, patience, and love. That’s the recipe.
I’m starting this blog because I want a community. People to connect with. I want genuine friendship. I’ve really struggled to find that. It can feel difficult to find people who are vulnerable and open about their weaknesses and struggles. That is my definition of friendship. Vulnerability is the key to a lasting relationship. As an enneagram 4, I crave depth. It’s hard to come by these days. I feel lonely. Outside of the box. Wanting to be unique, but grieving that I don’t feel a sense of belonging. Trying to adapt, in order to fit in, is very much against my true nature.
Does anyone out there feel the same way? Are you lonely and looking for friendship and connection? Perhaps someone who truly understands what you are going through? I am here. I see you and I hear your heart longing for something more. So, grab a cup of tea or coffee, and join me, won’t you? Until next time…..Holly